Monday, April 25, 2011

Wouldn't trade the pain... for what I've learned

Today is a good day. Aside from the fact that sleeping was (and has been) a constant challenge. I did finally lay down just before 6 this morning and slept solidly until Tigger began licking my hand at about 11. I managed to toss her out into the living room and shut the bedroom door (of course at that point, I was oblivious to the fact that Coco was still hiding under my bed- she made her appearance soon after) Coco began meowing at about 11:30, my alarm went off at 11:45, and I managed to reset the alarm after both cats were out, for an extra 30 minutes. Unfortunately, one of my girlfriends called and foiled that plan too. After speaking to her, then my parents, I decided to get up and make lunch. I was up and made it in to work on time.

I'm proud to say I haven't given much thought to the dilemmas that I was facing at dawn, but I'm sure they will creep back into my subconscious just in time to keep me awake again tonight.

As for my nutrition today, I had a homemade French bread pizza for lunch- topped with green pepper and pepperoni. I drank a Diet Coke. I had some reduced fat Ruffles for a snack and had Jose Ole Steak and Cheese Chimmichianga (oddly not found in spell checker- my apologies) for dinner. I squeezed an Activia yogurt in there too... just for regularity.

It's a new week and I feel good.

I also feel its necessary to pay homage to my favorite breakup CD. I've practically worn it out since September. Pink: Funhouse. It's definitely not safe for kids- but her message is clear. She was pissed off at her man.

Crystal Ball is by far my favorite song on the album.

Drinking wine and thinking bliss is on the other side of this
I just need a compass and a willing accomplice
All my doubts that fill my head are skidding up and down again
Up and down and 'round again, down and up and 'round again

Oh, I've had my chances and I've taken them all
Just to end up right back here on the floor
To end up right back here on the floor

Pennies in a well, a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel
Fortune teller that says maybe you will go to hell
But I'm not scared at all
The cracks in the crystal, the cracks in the crystal ball

Sometimes you think everything is wrapped inside a diamond ring
Love just needs a witness and a little forgiveness
And a halo of patience and a less sporadic pace
And I'm learning to be brave in my beautiful mistakes

Oh, I've felt that fire and I, I've been burned
But I wouldn't trade the pain for what I've learned
I wouldn't trade the pain for what I've learned

Pennies in a well, a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel
Fortune teller that says maybe you will go to hell
But I'm not scared at all
Of the cracks in the crystal, the cracks in the crystal ball

Irony, irony, this hate and love, hate and love
What it does to me? What it's done to me? What is done, done?

Pennies in a well, a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel
Broken mirrors and a black cat's cold stare
Walk under ladders on my way to hell, I'll meet you there
But I'm not scared at all, I'm not scared at all
'Bout the cracks in the crystal, the cracks in the crystal ball.

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